here i am again

Ok... i noe its been quite a while since i last update my blog.. hei wat do u expect for someone who dun have internet line anymore at home... its so the leceh....

Wel a lot of things been happening... tooo many of it... let me juz list some of it..

Two weeks ago, i go thru hell... one hell of ride... i was having the hard time trying to meet up with him... but like you noe he wont meet up with me..(i tot..) somehow towards the ending, which is on the friday, the day before he go off for ns, i jus teel him that i decided to come over to his area... jus to pass a letter... yah of all thingy, a letter?! hehehe.. oh well... after all the convincing and pestering, he reluctantly want to meet me.. so before i meet up with him, i meet my fren first... she was with her boyfriend... we had our dinner.. her bf pay for it..(thx firman..) so moment we are doen with the dinner and remembering our past, i msg him... assuming that i'm going to meet up with him alone... ended up, i was like being cheated.. i was like being fall into a trap... one of my fren want to meet him up too.. no offence but logically, what the reason behind it?.. ain't enouf with the almost everyday meet up... me who didn't even get to go out, y i wasn't given the chance alone with him... y? ok fine... moment with them, i shut mouth... i feel so odd.. seriously like a lamp post i should say... like an uninvited guest.. but what can i do... about that letter, i already put it in the letter box... hahaha... but overall for tat, i feel so stupid... things that i want to do, i didnt do.. isn't it might be the last time me seeing him? isn't i supposed to like get a hug or a nice stare in the eyes? isn't it supposed to be a sad momont? I didn't get all that.. it didn't happened... due to some distraction... so now, he haf left for ns.. safely serving ns... and i'm here mending my every single empty moment i had... mending every single wound that i cause unintentionally.. sad rite... but what to do.. i jus deserve it...

however, after all the sad moment thinking that he's gone... the crying for being so stupid... i was then being cured by the appearance of my couzins... we had a 'kenduri'.. n we had a very fun time.. playing all sort of weird games.. telling jokes... and many more... so the sundae itself, all the couzens went out together.. we went to marina.. intention to play bowling la... play arcade la.. watch movie la... do this la.. do that la... wel ended up we decided to catch a movie.. fantastic 4.. so before the movie starts, we pla arcade and go for food feast... fun, fun, fun all the way.. the movie was nice.. after the movie, everyone rushed to the toilet.. just simply couldn't stand the coldness... after the toilet session ends, we head down to bugis... along the way, we saw e'in.. talk and chat for a while... den we go bugis to take neoprint.. damn the neoprint was so cute.. funny i should say... den head down to ah chew hotel, for dinner feast.. den back home...

tuesday, kak imah left to melbourne... for further studies... never thot that it could be so touching and saddest parting... i cried eventually... though i'm not that close with her, but still, she's like my elder sister that is so reliable and caring.. but two parting happened on the same day... first, kak imah... then, it was my dad... he went to kl... before he board the bus, we had an outing ard kanpung jawa... yah its been a while since we last been there.. overall it was ok... at the end of the day, everything goes well.. except my mum, being the 'penakut', sleep with me for donno how many days.. until my dad come back, of course..

this week... hmmm i can say that its th most unbelievable moment of my life... i gain lots of frenz... guy i should say.. .first is one of his campmate... who is firdaus.. he's ok la... next would be like a double package... both kak ita frenz whom we saw yesterday, want to get to know me.. n having all that, i feel so lucky... happy and surprise... now i can live my life with a smile again.. juz love to make frenz with all...